I know I'm ready.  To do this. To take that one step into adulthood.

  To leave behind that emotional mess of a teenager that I was.  That girl will always be with me, but I can manage her. I can keep her at bay without letting her come forward enough to ruin things again.

    I need to grow. To go. To let go.  I need to start acting like I'm in my twenties now.

 I was such a wreck for so many years, but that's not me anymore.  There's no more starving, cutting, puking.  Or sleeping whole days away so that I don't have to feel anything.

 I take life now.  I want everything now.  I've done a completely 180, yet there's still feelings and behaviors I need to get rid of.

 I can do this.  I know I can.  I'm not alone, she's right with me.  More than anyone, she deserves this.  She deserves for me to take this step.

  We've been together a year and four months, and I still haven't completely kicked away my safety net.

  And I don't know why I haven't.  She won't leave me. I know that in the deepest part of me.

 I can see where her mind leads.  Where she daydreams about her future, the person she's going to be.  The things she's going to accomplish.  I know that I'm there right beside her in her thoughts for the future.

 The way she can look into my eyes and know that she's in mine.

  So I need to do this. If not for myself, for her.  Her. 

           She takes up so much of me, and I'm not just hurting myself anymore by not doing this.

    I know I can do this.